When I tried to think of words to sum up this session, the only things that came to mind were all of the conversations I had with Sarah leading up to this shoot. I’m not lying when I say we literally waited almost two years before this actually happened. There was a lot of talk, but this was something that was way out of Sarah’s comfort zone and I mean more than the average person who doesn’t like to be in front of the camera. If you ask her, she will tell you now that she probably needed an entire year to mentally prepare but even after a year I still don’t think she was fully prepared for a full face of makeup and fake lashes. I’m saying all of this because when I look at these images, I see a brave, confident and beautiful young woman who you wouldn’t think in a million years looked scared or nervous. I’m seriously so proud of Sarah for doing this for herself, and I will leave it at that. I’ve asked Sarah to share her experience rather than blab on about how awesome our day was, because if you haven’t noticed yet… We think all of our clients kick ass.
So thank you Sarah, for trusting our vision and letting go!
“It took two years for me to get behind the camera, and a few failed attempts after scheduling different sessions with Britt but then having to cancel out of fear. It always seemed like I was never able to go through with it, but why? I’ve never thought of myself as a typical girly girl, and never considered myself beautiful like so many other people I would look at. I would always look for beauty in other people, but could never get past my insecurities to really see it in myself. I thought being behind the camera would result in shame, discouragement or judgment but it turns out it that was the exact opposite, I was so wrong. After two years I finally decided to bite the bullet and trust Brittany’s word in saying that she wouldn’t make me feel uncomfortable, pressured or push me too far outside my comfort zone. Don’t get me wrong, it was definitely still out of my comfort zone but she really did make me feel relaxed and I actually enjoyed the whole process of not knowing what to expect. Getting my makeup done was a miracle in itself, considering I’ve literally never worn makeup. She also picked out all of my outfits, and when it came time to actually shoot she showed me how to pose in ways that were natural and fun. I mean it when I say my expectations of this shoot were the complete opposite of the end result. For the first time in my life, I had a genuine smile on my face that I couldn’t wipe off when I first viewed my photos. Even though I had some makeup on, and was dressed a little bit differently than my normal everyday gym clothes, I finally saw beauty. At the beginning I was nervous that I wasn’t going to look like myself because I don’t wear dresses or makeup, but this wasn’t the case at all… I was still Sarah Wall. If you aren’t confident, have a low self esteem, embarrassed or ashamed of people seeing your face or body, or if you just don’t think you’re pretty and compare yourself to everyone around you my advice is to just LET GO of it all, even if it’s for one hour and it’s extremely painful. All of these things are exactly how I felt, and I understand it’s so much easier said than done but I really had to just suck it up and wipe away all expectations and mind sets I had leading up to the shoot. I had to get out of my own way and trust Britt to do her thing, which was to make me come alive, be proud and feel pretty. Since doing this shoot, the way I view myself has changed. Whether it be wearing something other than a tshirt and shorts or taking a picture with someone, I feel so much more confident in who I am.”